Saturday, December 6, 2008, 6:25 PM
It's been a long time since I felt this way.
The utter confusion didn't fail to make me feel like ripping my hair outta my head. No, I'm still caught in the many webs of a teenage relationship, it's so overbearing that I have no idea how to think in my right mind back again. The hot tears that cannot be recollected seemed like they are miscible in this bewilderment and appall. Yet again I don't see the need of stirring a storm in a tea cup.For a moment it seemed, just so pointless.
And then the love we had was so surreal but it's in reality. As if, something perfect happened. Then it was too perfect, too perfect we both haven't realised how deep it was, yet we still succumbed to it. You have to hold back, I have to hold back. Because if we don't, I foresee future misunderstandings, mutual misunderstandings.
For an instance together forever sounds feasible enough. And yet, there had to be barriers. Race and religion barriers. Barriers that cannot be crossed not overcome, or perhaps it's just something I do not wish to succumb myself to - to strict regulations and practices. I just do not see myself doing all the things I will have to in the future if together forever for us had to be feasible.
For the past year I've been the happiest girl ever, for love was kind to me. I place love above all other virtues. But unfortunately, I'm most probably the only silly one in this era to be thinking that way.
So honey, if I were you. I'd choose love over religion instead. But you proved to me your trust was gone. Your love for the religion so distantly surpassed your love for me, and whatever else I cannot have. And knownst to all I don't want to succumb myself to a religion I do not want to be in. Thus just before this hole we dug together gets any deeper...
Sigh, I don't know what to do.
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Mandy, 9 Sept 1992.
Singapore Polytechnic, DHRMP01.
Always a dancer. (:
A silent grace unfolds,
grows conspicuous in the naked eyes.
Poise and grace is all it needs,
to penetrate your deepest shallows.
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