Wednesday, July 8, 2009, 11:36 PM
For years I have been wanting to describe all the atrocities she has done to me. I was just waiting for the time when I can't take her nonsense anymore, and I will do what she did to me all along - blog and kill silently.I will start back when I was in Secondary 1. There had been many times she isolated herself, threw pens on her table for nothing, gave me sick faces and I took it all lying down. For many times I asked her what was wrong, was beside her all the while but she didn't give a shit about me. Saw a note she wrote. And she said I was a flirt. Huh? Flirt at an age of 13?
So why should I now?
She would hang out with Valerie and friends, have fun with them. And then I became the isolated one. What else could I do? Wait patiently until her so-called-valid-mood-swing was over.
This didn't stop. In Secondary 2, I told her one of my deepest darkest secret. And you guessed it, she conveniently told that to a boyfriend's friend. And when I confronted her, she also conveniently said,'Huh? Orh. Sorry lor.'
At the beginning of
This was what was supposed to be a dedication for Josephine Png but after much evaluation, I have decided not to continue. If you wanna know, go ask a friend in CWSS sec 4.
For the whole afternoon I have been thinking what to do with my blog. And after serious consideration, I realise I am too lazy to list everything out, although the most vivid experiences were of this and last year's. And YZ makes a good point - it won't help.
Let me put my point across clearly first, of why I privatized this blog. (Go ahead and say I am cowardly.) After reading the first post that was OBVIOUSLY regarding me, which is really self-deceiving if I tell myself it's not about me, my primary intention is to get out your life. And you get out of my life. You know nuts about my existence and vice versa. And till now my point stands firm and clear. I thought this was better for me and you.
So yeap, after re-opening this blog, I will leave this url on for a few days, then proceed to change to a new one. I don't want you to know what is going on with my life, and you won't spot me or hear from KJ that I've been to your blog.
As to whether I am that 'plain slutty', or 'get things for the fucking brand', or 'genuine', or I should have 'more friends', I am sure you know the answer yourself. I have been too concerned with how people look at me after what you blogged, now I realise it is of no point either. Fyi, I am not afraid to admit I threw all of Ken's shoes away 3 years ago. (You were in it too, you forgot?)
I thought you should learn what people really think of you instead of continuing in your own little self-deception. I know all the negative things revolving around myself, you don't have to tell me, I don't care already.
And so I have removed my tagboard, I don't want to receive any comments from you, nor do I want to see any comment written on your blog or tagboard, and so I don't think I will ever wanna step into your blogging property. You know it's me to run away from the problem, but at least it keeps me calm. And then you will say,'you also self deceiving what!' And I'll tell you, no I am not self deceiving. It is just that I do not want to have anything to do with you and vice versa.
Good luck.
Had fun with Serene, Nini (I remember your very translucent top hor), Jan and Kat today! :D Then I missed dancesport. And I realise I could've skipped PACC too 'cos June didn't give out test papers! ):
Can't wait for school tomorrow! It's Econs!
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Mandy, 9 Sept 1992.
Singapore Polytechnic, DHRMP01.
Always a dancer. (:
A silent grace unfolds,
grows conspicuous in the naked eyes.
Poise and grace is all it needs,
to penetrate your deepest shallows.
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